Hello.

It's been roughly exactly 6 months, 10 days, and 6 hours with 30 minutes that I have not updated anything in deviantart.

What can I say? tsk tsk tsk. I'm no near getting better or stronger in my creations.

But truth be told, I've . . . eh went on an internal affair war in my old university. It was quite chaotic, raged in madness, and a silent rebellion. With along other news.

I'm talking about 3 giant dictator teachers of a certain major screwing/harassing/discriminating students from freshmen to sophomores. from Left to right they all get the hit, unless they are..._favoritism ....

I fought my battles and won over them psychological, physically, and mentally. They aren't worth a dam to learn from. I'm glad I did stood up against them since last year, finish the mess that was started, and gave some hope for the uh.. 100+ ex students that were once in that major. Their program is a 100% fail, despite even lasting a mere 4 yrs. They are already in the process of shutting down, because I've already hit their department hard with my grades, my influence, and my own defense. I ain't going down, even if I'm fighting alone to multiple traitors.

but I'd rather not rant about what has happened, because it's history or semi-present. Unless anyone's curious to ask.. maybe I could tell it as a story.


Other news: I will be attending to a new (non-art) college for spring and then a new one in fall. The one on fall is going to be a huge leap, or so I dream.


This winter break.. well you can call it a break, but my parents are quite hard to just love 'em and agree with them sometimes. I hate pretending and just agree with everything they say. I guess they are selfish in a way, I mean for christmas I gave everyone presents, and all I got was money ( I NEVER give my family money for Christmas, because I know what each of them like and want, it's part of knowing who they and understanding/loving them.) and a jacket. meh, i just love the jacket more than anything. It's Christmas. what do you expect, happy family cheer around? I don't know haha, in fact they probably don't understand me or they do and they just don't trust/ believe in me.

It's like i'm not a bad guy, nor do I.. do bad habits. It's just that what i'm saying, is that my parents deep in themselves think I suck at drawing/art, and probably think I won't survive the real world outside. In fact, I can't even draw/relax in the house. It's like for me to draw and paint and all that has to be done in secret. Because it doesn't exist in the house, and just after receiving the grades and telling them everything in details what happened and all for the past few months, all they say is great, like it doesn't matter what I did in school and force me to join in this ridiculous 2 bit plan created like 12 days before Christmas: Make a take-out restaurant, and I'm forced to work there cuz apperantly it's going to be a family thing.


Jeez man, they threated me already yesterday that i'd have to show up 8:00 A.m. and work the whole week meaning saturday/sunday included saying I could leave out of the house and just live with my own funds for the .. 10th time or so around.

It's a pain, nothing please them more than me becoming a superhuman being and be a robot at their disposal like a pawn.

The only stalemate move that I made with them was what happened on my B-day. They vowed and agreed that most likely they would provide the money to sent me to that fall '09 school.

but at least some luck HAS to come in my way to live it through. I'm currently drawing sketching at nights late 1:00 A.m. or late writing things and just trying to get back to what I really want to do. It's a pain, i'm so sleepy all the day, but I'm getting it through one night at a time.

Until then.. I can be in that dream of fall '09.



the other thing is that, I'm sorry to myself and ( to you guys too) . I didn't do my best in my creations this year,and all. I may be just hypes to you, but sooner or later, i'll start popping out somewhere in '09.

as I thought about it what to do for 2009

I though of making a new one, just to start fresh, cuz this one is.. well just for browsing and just posting stuff that I could show.

then well start from there try to upload REALLY good ones, not just well-made shit. I really need to open up those.. things... i've buried in my memory. Sooner or later they'll pass by.


anddddd

I don't know a website? a studio?

I mean come on.. haha I think i kid myself on that studio one... don't think anyone right now needs money off from their own work.. or do you? If you please feel free to just shout out yourself in this journal ( haaa, I seriously don't beileve it'll appear.. unless by some little birdie spread this journal.. from one place to another friend's journal then.. well that's gotta be the next best thing than that jacket I got in christmas.)

even I ironically asked some people in da living near me if they'd be willing =/ but seems they got a busy life, to each to their own, ja?

what else... what else... ? Hmmmm

I'm sure there was something more to say here...

oh right!...

Happy Holidayss and I really REALLY hope you had an amazing year '08, Christmas presents and all the goodness preparation for the arriving 2009! Many thanks to those awesome friends still in touch with me you know who you are. : D

( by chance at least 10x better than mine! )


See you next year or maybe one late night sneak in the computer! ( yea.., my computer isn't even my room . . . )